These Years

Since 2019, after experiencing the most painful period in my life, I lost my direction and didn't know how to continue living. I was unsure if I still had the capacity to love. During that time, I was living in a fog, trying to find direction and motivation in my life. After nearly four years, my life began to be restored and ignited by the Spirit of God. I decided to dedicate my life to God once again. In 2023, I told God that I didn't want to pursue romantic relationships anymore; I just wanted to live my life as a single person. I expressed my desire to follow God, know Him, seek Him, and serve Him. I decided to dedicate the rest of my life to God and live a life that was meaningful to me. I felt like I was becoming like Paul.

I told God that if He wanted me to enter into love and marriage again, He would have to bring that woman to me, just like He brought Eve to Adam (Genesis 2:22). I wouldn't actively pursue relationships, let alone love.

Seeking God

In August 2023, I wanted a breakthrough in my spiritual life. I prayed for a month and visited different churches to find a place where I could grow spiritually.

First Encounter

During this time, I visited a church called HTBB, where I met a sister who introduced me to HOC. I seized every opportunity to know God. On September 1st, it seemed like God heard my prayer and brought me to a place where I could rediscover Him. I was not social and didn't usually initiate conversations, but the first person introduced to me in this new place was Xiao Fen.

Touched by God

The first day I came to HOC, I was deeply touched by the Holy Spirit. Despite its simplicity without fancy lights or worship bands, I felt a pure pursuit and longing for God. It brought me back to the most sincere worship. I trembled and cried before God (I even startled a sister next to me who gave me tissues to wipe my tears).

That day, I knew this was the place where I could break through my spiritual life. I decided to stay and be a part of this fellowship.

On that day, the leader released a word from God to me (John 10:10), she said: 💡 "The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full."

💡 This was also a significant revelation for the beginning of my relationship with Xiao Fen, as I will explain later.

Coincidence or... God's Plan?

I started attending small group activities and Bible classes and got to know Xiao Fen better. One day, someone in the group asked about organizing a birthday celebration between September 23rd and 25th. Surprisingly, both Xiao Fen and I were not in KL during that time, and we were both in Penang, coincidentally.

My Birthday on September 25th (Surprise)

During my trip, a spiritual mentor, Uncle Jansen, blessed me, saying, "One people go, two people back." I just smiled and said, "Okay, amen, Prophet Jansen," inwardly thinking it couldn't be possible.

This trip was a solo trip I planned for myself because I truly enjoyed my alone time. I decided to stick to my plan of spending my birthday alone. However, this plan was also orchestrated by God.